Sunday, March 13, 2005

ahwells. i havent updated in 3 weeks! mymy. its been that long. yes. things have changeeed since that last botm. lol. yup!

my team is finalised! kevin teo justin pang and adam are in my teamm. lala. thats goood. lol, nat skools is fast approaching though... kinda scarry. lol.

ahwells. i watched 2 movies over fridae and sat. hitch and the boogieman. haha, hitch was nice. boogieman was nice... but the ending sucked. lol, ahwells. i went acsbr funfair also. it was okaeee. and the primary side came back to our campus. had to go 'support' them summore. lol, these things are nice i guess. they take my mind of other bad things... haha, i know i wud go mad thinking abt that other thing thats really bothering mee. yeah.

yupp. i guess i've decided to REALLY give up on that stupid girl. yupp. i've heard so many things about her. and shes done nothing to show me they aren't true. ahwell. life goes on yes? but the only problem is that shes still the one i think of when theres nothing to do... shes still the one in my dreams. i really cant seem to let go? maybe i love her too much. haha, how idiotic of me. but i think i just want the happy times to return. i get flashbacks all the time... they're really making me craaazy-ier than i already am. haha, i doubt anyone will drop by here aniway. this has become a ghost blog. ahwells. its ok... heh, and i've heard that she blocked me. thats good? i think... that'll help. but i get so worked up and heartbroken now that she doesnt call animore... i keep picturing her talking on the phone to another guy... that other guy they all sae she likes. ahwells. and sometimes her hugging that other guy. hah, im filled with envyy. =(

OK. i've gotta let go. thats the only way yes? shes not for me... i've gotta accept it.

mischief managed

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